quickwrite: growth
1. maybe I’m so angry because they haven’t ever been sorry. or asked for forgiveness. I guess I’m not as vindictive as I think, because every time someone does admit their wrong, I forgive and forget.
2. I can’t take myself seriously. It’s weird. I take myself too seriously, and I can’t take myself seriously because of that; I can’t trust feelings at face value for that. I’m a generous person who loves easily. I’m sensitive and nice and I think I do have that heart of gold my mom always talks about. When I get upset, I’m like a little child throwing a temper tantrum, thinking they’re all big and scary. I’m not scary. I can’t do anything cruel. I’m just too fucking nice for that. I’ve been called intimidating but I really don’t think I could hurt anyone.
2. I realize now that much of that kind of pain has been self inflicted. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, but I brought myself misery. I hope finally recognizing that means I will never do that again. It was all in my head, every time. That is so scary that I put myself through that.
But it gives me hope, because it wasn’t those people who were bad, it was me who was mad. I can deal with me. :]
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vidhizzle said:
Very applicable, especially part 3. Time to extract the poison and move on :)
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