Hmm well we both had just finished our first round of finals and so we decided to drink and watch Warrior together since I kept insisting that she watch it. We came back to my place and watched the movie in my room I can’t recall why since I thought we were watching it on the tv at first. But yeah…
first year, spring quarter. the next day was my psych 60 midterm, and his physics? math? something hard, midterm. we were both boutta FAIL, and we made the great decision to study together and be distracted. no one was home or around. it was the dead of night. and we started playing ten fingers.
we didn’t study AT ALL after that, didn’t even try to fake it. we spent too much time laughing and squirming uncomfortably. somehow, I lost. not sure how, considering the sheltered life I’ve led compared to him. or anyone. there was a moment where we were completely honest with each other. it was stupid and funny and fun and life-defining, all at the same time. I was just being me and he was being steven.
I used to think you were just making these horrible mistakes over and over and not learning anything from them. Now I realize you’ve been happy this whole time, and you’ve been pursuing that and not letting anything get in the way. I really do respect you for your persistence. it must mean so, so much to you, and I’m happy you’re happy.
we honestly haven’t hung out that much, and not in a reaaally long time. the weird thing is, though, I still feel like you’re one of my closest friends; even though I don’t know what’s happening in your life, and you don’t know what’s going on in mine, I know I can depend on you to be there if I need it. I feel like we really understand and know each other, and it’s SO WEIRDDDDDD cause we HONESTLY haven’t hung out much, but the time we have has been really meaningful. I hope you know I’m there for you.
I feel closer to you in college than I ever did in high school. I often wonder if you know why I refuse to talk to your best friend. I have always been there for you, and will continue to be; I’m your true friend. :]
I used to tell myself to smile through my anger and pain senior year, told myself to be like you, the girl that EVERYONE loved. You have the most radiant smile, and even when everything’s going to shit for you, you still have the most positive influence on everyone around you. I really wanted to be like that, but I’m afraid my negativity bled out to everyone stupid enough to be around me during that time. I wish we had spent more time hanging out!
You were one of the first older people I’ve ever been able to allow to be a mentor to me. I didn’t know how to talk to people older than me before I came to college, and I perceived the advice older friends would give me as a power trip or something. For some reason, though, in college, I could really take in advice, especially yours. I feel like the person I’m becoming mirrors your journey to the person you’ve become.
I am so envious of the relationship you have with your partner. You two are so clearly in love, in the healthiest way possible; you make each other better, and I think that has a lot to do with way you’ve respected yourself. honestly, you’re kind of an inspiration to me because I can tell you put yourself first, and respected yourself first, and it’s working out so beautifully for you. I hope I do that too, someday.
I think you’re very different from who you seem to be. Every time I’ve been around you, I see a completely different side to you, and your tumblr is yet another one. I can’t pin you into a category, and it’s really interesting. I think you’re real, and I think you don’t take bullshit from anyone. I have a lot of respect for you, even though we honestly don’t know each other well.
SWEET LITTLE RECAP. Lord Eddard Stark was having some fun being a creeper over the Baratheons’ hair colour (if he hadn’t been a Stark, maybe he would have been a hairdresser? And maybe it would have been a better life for him.)